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Grey

i was feeling kinda depressed today. maybe it was the weather. too davis like. haha. just kidding. the weather was very gloomy today though. everything was so...grey. it just made me feel down. i don't know why but i've found myself to be much more emotionally sensitive since my whole davis ordeal. everything makes me want to cry. i don't, but i feel like it. anything on tv that's even marginally touching makes me feel all gooshy. and things get me sad so easily. like the weather.

i felt a lot better after going to the "hallelujah" party tonight though. when i left the house i was feeling really blue. even my mom seemed kinda down when i left and amaya slept most of the day. guess the weather got to them too. amaya was cute this afternoon though, she slept cuddled up against me with her head on my chest while i was watching tv. anyways, on the way to the party i was listening to sigur ros's ( ) album. and let me tell you, sigur ros is not very uplifting when you're depressed. but the haunting melody of the first track on the cd fit perfectly with the weather and my wistful mood. but once i got to church and saw the giant blow-up slide outside, my heart began to lighten. i got wrangled almost immediately by ralph into helping with worship. we did that later on and i kept messing up on guitar because i couldnt see the chords and i think i sounded horrible, but couldnt even tell because i didn't have a monitor. but i still had fun.

jon, jing, and anqi were clowns, but instead of entertaining the kids, they mostly scared them away. which was entertaining for me. one thing that stood out was this giant blow-up caterpillar crawly tunnel thing for the kids. what was so disturbing about it was that the kids would climb into the slit that is the caterpillar's mouth, and climb out of the slit that is the caterpillar's...other end. it was very odd seeing all these children popping out of there. afterwards some of us went out to get some food and stuff. nothing else was open, so we wound up at mcdonald's. i must say, the rivermark mcd's is a lot fancier than most. it had paintings and stuff on the wall. very classy...for a mcdonald's. yeah, that's all i'm gonna say about the party. the kids were cute. it was pretty fun. im bored of describing my day. i thought that if i started writing maybe something interesting would come up for me to talk/rant about, but nothing has. so i'm through. if you want to read more about the party, go read jon's blog. he'll probably talk about it some.