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Underwater

indiana jones reaches for the artifact sitting on the pedestal. his heart races as he remembers the trials he had to endure to get his hands on this ancient treasure; the booby traps, the restless natives, the vile nazis, but it was all worth it. he tenderly lifts up the object covered in centuries of dust and grime. he blows on it and sneezes as the dust blows into his face. indy looks down at the prize held in his hands and reads aloud to himself the mystical words engraved upon the ancient tome, untouched for a millenium...

"ben's blog"

ok, so it hasn't been a millenium, but it's been nearly 2 weeks, which is a pretty long time to have not updated my blog. i just haven't felt up to it. why? i dunno, i haven't felt up to a lot of things these last few weeks. to be honest i've been a little depressed, though i never talk about these sorts of things with people. i just let myself be depressed. i don't know what's been causing it, i've just felt really empty and unmotivated. school's been really sucking, except my film/tv:mass media class. i dont think it's the reason i've been unhappy, but i've just been really sick of it. i haven't been wanting to go to class or do any work. i think i can't handle more than a couple months of school at a time. i just get fed up after a while. except for my mass media class. i love that class. i'm doing great in terms of grades and i'm learning a great deal. i think i'm just the kind of guy where if i'm not interested in something, i just can't keep myself focused in it. which means i'm really not cut out for college. any class i'm not totally interested in (like any of my ge classes) i just can't motivate myself. ugh. i was doing so well earlier in the quarter though. getting really good grades and everything, i just couldnt maintain it. i think my grades are still ok, or i can at least pull some miracle out of my rear, but its been like swimming through molasses these last few weeks. it hasn't just been in school though. i just feel like i'm underwater. like everything's muted and hazy. trying to get anything done takes a great deal of mental effort on my part.

what the hell is wrong with me? i need some prozac or something dammit.

yeah. enough of that. did you know that japan didn't have child pornography laws until about 3 years ago? and the legal age for sexual consent in germany is 13? sick ain't it? just thought you'd like to know.

have you guys heard about the master/slave controversy in LA county? the terms master and slave are commonly used in electronics and computing. well, some ignorant doofs found it offensive and LA county now prohibits electronics vendors from using master/slave labels on devices. geez. even standing under a liberal banner as i do i find this overly politically correct jargon total crap. this is like the time a washington dc mayoral staff member was fired for using the word niggardly. niggardly has nothing to do with race. it means miserly or stingy. people take offense to the most ridiculous things because of their total ignorance. if you know nothing about electronics, you get offended by master/slave. if you don't study the freakin' english language, you get offended by niggardly. this is why education is such a key. we could solve so many political and social ills if we could just educate people and teach them to think for themselves.

hmm, i didn't mean to go into all that. i just brought up the master/slave thing because bbspot came up with a satirical list of "other computer terms banned by LA county." here they are:

11. SCSI - Cleanliness impaired
10. Killer App - Socially Maladjusted App
9. USB - USA
8. Floppy Drive - Erectile Dysfunction Drive
7. DIP Switches - Mentally Challenged Switches
6. HyperThreading - Attention Deficit Disability Threading
5. Heat Sink - He/Sheat Sink
4. Winmodem - Funmodem
3. ATAPI Device - Native American Device
2. Motherboard - Non-gender Specific Parentboard
1. Cancel/Retry/Abort - Cancel/Retry/Allow Woman to Choose

you think it's funny, but just wait until someone really does ban these terms.

Posted by bwu at December 3, 2003 05:19 PM